So today I went to lunch with my dad at this local place that we both frequent - enough for the owners to know my dad by name. Its a small place that’s technically a grocery store by law but its truly a restaurant run by an elderly couple just fifteen minute’s drive from where I live.

We get our food (and it’s the best comfort food ever, seriously), and my dad starts to talk to the wife/owner of the restaurant. Its amicable and humorous but she then tells my dad that her husband won’t be returning to the business indefinitely because he has cancers in many different places in his body. When my dad ended the conversation he turned to me and kind of talked to me about it and about his best friend’s brother (like, best friend of 30 years best friend) having a stroke and being paralyzed on his right side. I felt bad and I could see it in his eyes that he felt strained too. He brushed off these events by saying “oh well, its another funeral I’m invited to.”

I was confused by that statement - how could he brush off death and tragedy so easily? I realized he was getting to the age that people are beginning to unravel health-wise (he’s in his early 60s) and when death is sitting, knocking at all the doors around you, you kind of lie in wait.

After lunch I took him to my favorite place in the city - a cemetery off of an industrial road. Its a hilly cemetery and you can see the entire city (Buckhead, Midtown, Downtown, and Stone Mountain) from the crest. Then I took him to my favorite little house nestled in a sketchy neighborhood. He drove me around the neighborhood and showed me a few of his favorite sites.

I was really content actually, amidst all this sadness and death, I felt by showing my dad these places (I try not to show many people these things) that I was comforting him somehow. His son had come to the big city and had figured himself and his surroundings out. I knew that that made him happy. When he dropped me off I gave him a big hug and thanked him for the impromptu lunch and that I was sorry about the recent news.

Life goes on.

“Dark Paradise” _ Lana Del Rey

the percussion shift in this song is really really great

im so bored

Red knitwear featured by Sea of Shoes

“This Is What Makes Us Girls” _ Lana Del Rey

I don’t understand why it’s the cool thing to be ashamed to like her.

This song is amazing and all like Valley of the Dolls and Clueless and 50s Americana with that amazing hint of Twin Peaks which makes it SO ON POINT for everything I’m into right now.

Karlie Kloss for Dior Haute Couture

Meghan Collison for Vogue Russia January 2012

Lindsey Wixson being better than you in Just Cavalli for S/S 2012

Charlotte Free for Wonderland

The Concept _ “Gimme Twice”

This is a great Phoenix-esque song with an amazing video. I mostly like this video because it’ll help me prepare for all the summer hazed nights and days in barcelona this summer

• school is starting up again tomorrow and its kinda stressful to me
• i get really stressed out about being unprepared for class when it comes to textbooks
• i decided to rent my textbooks this time around because it makes no sense for me to keep any of them
• people keep telling me that i’m losing weight (in my face? my arms?) and i went to moes last night (alone, of course, naturally) and ate my weight in nachos and i’m really feeling it this morning
• i didn’t realize how much clothing i had until i filled up:

1. the largest brooks brothers bag that brooks brothers gives out (filled with 8 pairs of jcrew pants)
2. a brooks brothers box (with my olasul shirts) and a ralph lauren box (with my brooks brothers lambswool fairisle shawl collar cardigan)
3. a small jcrew bag
4. a giant hamper. filled to the BRIM
5. a duffel filled with my outerwear (but not even all of it, i still have a hand knit alpaca wool sweater that i have to put somewhere!!!) and some belts
6. the final duffel is dedicated to light sweaters, a towel, a handle of Southern Comfort (cause im a classy bitch) and toiletries
7. and i still have FIVE PAIRS OF SHOES/BOOTS to take to school
8. AND I HAVE A BUNCH OF FOOD TO TAKE TO SCHOOL

• i need to employ someone to organize my shit, y’all
• i also get really nervous about money and stuff, you know? because i’m going to study abroad in barcelona and my job is only giving me 10hr/wk and at minimum wage that’s shit money when all i want is the opening ceremony tote bag with the black american flag on the front :(
• i ALSO get really stressed about my social life because i have so many people that i need to see/talk to/converse with and i just want to talk to only a few of them, but not in a way that i hate everyone or dislike them, but i just value my time with a few people SO MUCH MORE you know?
• i feel that my life has steered in a direction that’s a lot about climbing the social ladder but i feel like its gonna pay off this semester
• ok ALSO how am i losing weight when im sitting here eating toblerone?????????????????????????? hmmmmmm???????????

this has been a post about nothing. sorry bout it seth!

people that are more important than you

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